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[  Mood: Very Sad ]

[  Currently: Listening to First Love-Utada Hikaru ]

So Hello blog of mine, it's been awhile since we've talked. Lately, I've been feeling down, like something in my life is missing, it seems when the puzzles pieces start to fit, it seems that some strong gust of wing blows everything away. I hate this feeling of helpless ness.

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[  Mood: Very Sad ]

[  Currently: Listening to Missing ]

It's yet another day, and I found myself, staring at my phone, hoping that a friend will want to take to me once again, it seems more and more each day, I get pushed away further and further way. I'm starting to think, no one has noticed. I sit in my room, the sun going down, and the only people I've spoken to where I live is my mother, and two siblings. I feel so unwanted, so un needed, and sure if I posted this in my myspace blog they might take notice, but then what no one cares, or they would tell me, I'm to emo for them, and then I get ignored even more. I hate this feeling, that creeps inside my soul, that rips me into pieces, It's so cold here and no one has taken any notice, of the girl they are leaving behind.

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[  Mood: Confused ]

[  Currently: Listening to I Can't Stay Away and About Us Now ]

He driving me insane, one day he'll talk to me, even just a bit another day he is ignoring my messages. It's tearing me apart, sure we weren't ever really friends, after we ended, and I was to scared to get near him because how I still felt, the break up we had wasn't wanted from either of us but it was need to we, I could grow up. I love him even more know, yet, I don't know where to go from here, sure him and that other girl broke it off. Yet, as I try for a simple friendship, all I get from him is a vibe that he'd rather see me at the bottom of the ocean, it's driving me insane, I have no idea where to go from here. He talks with my best friend, and panic rips through my heart. She messages him and he'll answer, with the way he is, he could latch to her and fall. She could fall for him to, and then where does that leave me, I'm stuck in the do, I get upset because that's the person I love, or do I say ok because she my best friend.

She says that would never happen. I think maybe my imagination has gotten ahead of me. But I'm so scared, what if it comes true, what role will I have to force my self to play to keep both friendships. I had a dream, that I ended up planning his wedding and pretending to be Hannah Montana. I really just don't know anymore, I guess I need a place to rant.